Hello my sparks,
June is over now and this month was crazy!!! This year has been full of positive changes so far and it’s time for a short progress report:
2018 started great so far and I am full of motivation and ideas, even though I found myself in a creative hole during April, but thankfully I do know how to handle this kind of mini- depression by now. I honestly was looking for this year since I was 18 and it didn’t disappoint me at all so far!
I had some cool projects and more great ones to come, I met great people and feel so blessed all the time. Every day I feel and know that I am one step closer to where I want to be and this feeling pushes me even more to put more energy, time and love in everything what I’m doing.
There is only one thing which doesn’t really work out even though I have a great plan: Fitness. My calendar is exploding and I am struggling really hard with finding time to go to the gym. I know there are no excuses but sleep is also important and if there’s no sleep at all I wouldn’t work as well.
Photos by Tatiana Fettich from Dreampic.com
There was a time where I wanted to do a thousand things at once and sometimes I still do want to do so and when I did nothing it made me nervous and when I only did one thing it made me anxious as well. I never wanted or had a reason to calm down and relax, everything I did was with the ulterior motive that it was something which will bring me closer to what I want and where I want to be. And what I want in life is just a life full of happiness, inspiration and motivation. I want to be happy and I want to make other people happy as well. I want to be a person, who’s inspiring and motivating other people to follow their dreams and goals and to believe in themselves and love themselves for who they are. I want all of this because I would like to have someone like that when I was depressed, unsure and didn’t love myself and was always asking myself what my destination in life is. I had to work it all out by myself and it was hard for me sometimes to keep on going in life. I want to be the best friend you never had which you can always consult at any time.
Gladfully I finally found one person who is all that for me now, my boyfriend. He is my biggest motivation and inspiration and he believes in me even when I don’t. Thanks to him I have a lot of energy and ideas to realize my projects, but I can also calm down and just enjoy the moment with him without thinking of all the things on my to do list.
I know this blogpost is long, and if you read it until here: Thank you for reading this, I really appreciate it !
How have your first part of 2018 been so far ?