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Das Café Am Rande Der Welt

SPOILER+WARNUNG: Holt euch einen Tee oder Kaffee und Kekse! Dieser Post wird lang! Ich habe mir für dieses Jahr vorgenommen, etwas mehr zu lesen, um genauer zu sein, ein Buch im Monat zu lesen. Früher habe ich an einem Wochenende 20 Bücher gelesen und jetzt finde ich leider kaum die Zeit dazu, das ist der Nachteil am Erwachsenen- Dasein. Diese Zeit möchte ich mir aber wieder nehmen, denn für mich ist Lesen nicht nur Unterhaltung, ich tauche dadurch in eine ganz andere Welt und vergesse die Dinge um mich herum. Das Älterwerden bringt aber auch mit sich, dass man viel wählerischer wird, in meinem Fall auch bei der Bücherauswahl. Während ich früher einfach gerne Liebesgeschichten oder Krimis gelesen habe, bin ich im heutigen Alter immer auf der Suche nach Büchern, die mich weiterbringen, unterhaltsam sind sie jedoch nicht immer. Am Freitag, den 13. Oktober hatte ich einen echt miesen Tag ( ich glaube nicht an den Unglückstag! ) und fühlte mich etwas hilflos, daher habe ich beschlossen, mal wieder etwas mehr Zeit mit mir selbst …

Standing At The Crossroads

This month was quite tough for me because I had to go through some private issues and university and my new job just started. In the first few days I was excited for the new and last semester and for my new job, but I quickly realised it is too much for me. I had to work, prepare the next lessons for class, go to the gym, socialise, do my paperwork, start writing my bachelor thesis, prepare interviews for my blog, write articles for the future, prepare the winter collection for my online shop and answer all the mails regarding collaborations, cooperations and requests. If you work 3 days a week full- day and have classes 2 days a week it’s kinda hard to get all this done. Even though I thought my time management is pretty good everything totally got out of control this October and every day I wished I could just stay in my bed and keep sleeping. I didn’t feel well, sometimes I felt dizzy and sick in the morning and …

What I would tell my younger self

I turned 25 last week and it is one year closer to 30. I didn’t know why so many women are afraid of this number but I think I kind of feel them now. There are so many things I want to reach in my life and haven’t reached yet. I know that it is never to late to do what you love and start to live your life – better late than never. I also do know that we shouldn’t define ourselves by our age, but there are some things I wish I would have known before or I wish I would have done before: I. JUST START SOMEWHERE If you are reading my blog from the very beginning, then you know that I’ve started a blog several years ago and couldn’t even write one blogpost because I didn’t know what to write about. And I didn’t even know where to start writing. I think that was because of my mindset, I somehow thought when I decide to start with one topic, I can’t …

Summertime Laziness In August

Summer is almost over and it’s the first time since years that I didn’t work for the whole summer – it’s a weird feeling to be honest and I didn’t really know what to do… I actually did but this laziness rolled over me like a big fat whale and didn’t let me go, so that’s why I – compared to my previous summer holidays didn’t do that much. I went on holidays to Bulgaria and that’s basically it. I had a lot of things to do and my list of to do’s was  or still is super long – but everything I did this month, I did it with half my passion and my heart. Or I checked the things off my list but still felt, that I didn’t do that much. I really don’t know why I fell in this black whole and became depressed during this month, I couldn’t concentrate on positive things a lot because I had to much time probably. I really do hate myself for chilling too much and …

How To Get The Key To Success

We all know those up and downs where you have moments of high motivation to reach your goals and then they disappear as fast as I eat my food ( you know I love food ). Motivation isn’t the only key to success, it’s a start but the real key to reach your goal is discipline. Discipline is the key to success. Note that down. So here’s the thing with discipline: if you aren’t naturally super duper ambitious and disciplined, you need to develop it. Like Tony Robbins said, discipline is like a muscle, you can build it with constant training. HOW TO START Deciding to do something is already a start. But you also need to know how you want to achieve it. Let me just give you my example: I want to have a big booty ( no beauty op, but by hard training ). And I decided to register myself at the gym. HOW TO KEEP GOING If you made the first step and decide to do something, your motivation is always …

What We All Think About the Instagram Shadowban

The shadow ban is currently in every small and big bloggers mind and now I want to say something regarding to this case too, this is just an opinion and there are no tips on how to fix the ban, since there are enough articles about that and I couldn’t fix it myself yet: INSTAGRAM IS NO FUN TO ME ANYMORE. The shadow ban hit me suddenly and I realised it immediately because my engagement dropped from usually 170 to 190 likes to 50 until 70 likes…. WTF. I was shadow banned for a week and I tried everything I could to get out of this, I read articles on the internet on how to do that and I made it. But after posting 3 pictures I still didn’t get the engagement back I used to have so now I just stopped using Instagram for almost two weeks now. I AM VERY FRUSTRATED It is really frustrating to see your Instagram account stagnate and to know, you won’t reach more people with your creative work …

How It’s Like To Live Without A Smartphone

Within not even a year I had to change my phone 7 times because it was broken or once stolen. When my phone got stolen in Shanghai, I decided not to buy a new phone immediately and waited for two months until I was back in Germany and could buy me a new one. I thought it would be hard without a phone- especially in China! IT ISN’T HARD AT ALL But to be honest, it wasn’t hard at all. I honestly felt kind of free and happy to be without my phone. Sure, a phone is useful and I would have liked to take some photos of special places I really liked but I enjoyed the moments more than ever. The only times I was a little bit scared is, when I got lost and when I didn’t know specific words in Chinese to communicate with the locals. But other than that, I didn’t really miss my phone. TRUST IS NEEDED Every time I had an appointment with someone, I needed to trust them …