All posts filed under: Personal

Naked thoughts

What I would tell my younger self

I turned 25 last week and it is one year closer to 30. I didn’t know why so many women are afraid of this number but I think I kind of feel them now. There are so many things I want to reach in my life and haven’t reached yet. I know that it is never to late to do what you love and start to live your life – better late than never. I also do know that we shouldn’t define ourselves by our age, but there are some things I wish I would have known before or I wish I would have done before: I. JUST START SOMEWHERE If you are reading my blog from the very beginning, then you know that I’ve started a blog several years ago and couldn’t even write one blogpost because I didn’t know what to write about. And I didn’t even know where to start writing. I think that was because of my mindset, I somehow thought when I decide to start with one topic, I can’t …

Summertime Laziness In August

Summer is almost over and it’s the first time since years that I didn’t work for the whole summer – it’s a weird feeling to be honest and I didn’t really know what to do… I actually did but this laziness rolled over me like a big fat whale and didn’t let me go, so that’s why I – compared to my previous summer holidays didn’t do that much. I went on holidays to Bulgaria and that’s basically it. I had a lot of things to do and my list of to do’s was  or still is super long – but everything I did this month, I did it with half my passion and my heart. Or I checked the things off my list but still felt, that I didn’t do that much. I really don’t know why I fell in this black whole and became depressed during this month, I couldn’t concentrate on positive things a lot because I had to much time probably. I really do hate myself for chilling too much and …

How To Get The Key To Success

We all know those up and downs where you have moments of high motivation to reach your goals and then they disappear as fast as I eat my food ( you know I love food ). Motivation isn’t the only key to success, it’s a start but the real key to reach your goal is discipline. Discipline is the key to success. Note that down. So here’s the thing with discipline: if you aren’t naturally super duper ambitious and disciplined, you need to develop it. Like Tony Robbins said, discipline is like a muscle, you can build it with constant training. HOW TO START Deciding to do something is already a start. But you also need to know how you want to achieve it. Let me just give you my example: I want to have a big booty ( no beauty op, but by hard training ). And I decided to register myself at the gym. HOW TO KEEP GOING If you made the first step and decide to do something, your motivation is always …

What We All Think About the Instagram Shadowban

The shadow ban is currently in every small and big bloggers mind and now I want to say something regarding to this case too, this is just an opinion and there are no tips on how to fix the ban, since there are enough articles about that and I couldn’t fix it myself yet: INSTAGRAM IS NO FUN TO ME ANYMORE. The shadow ban hit me suddenly and I realised it immediately because my engagement dropped from usually 170 to 190 likes to 50 until 70 likes…. WTF. I was shadow banned for a week and I tried everything I could to get out of this, I read articles on the internet on how to do that and I made it. But after posting 3 pictures I still didn’t get the engagement back I used to have so now I just stopped using Instagram for almost two weeks now. I AM VERY FRUSTRATED It is really frustrating to see your Instagram account stagnate and to know, you won’t reach more people with your creative work …

How It’s Like To Live Without A Smartphone

Within not even a year I had to change my phone 7 times because it was broken or once stolen. When my phone got stolen in Shanghai, I decided not to buy a new phone immediately and waited for two months until I was back in Germany and could buy me a new one. I thought it would be hard without a phone- especially in China! IT ISN’T HARD AT ALL But to be honest, it wasn’t hard at all. I honestly felt kind of free and happy to be without my phone. Sure, a phone is useful and I would have liked to take some photos of special places I really liked but I enjoyed the moments more than ever. The only times I was a little bit scared is, when I got lost and when I didn’t know specific words in Chinese to communicate with the locals. But other than that, I didn’t really miss my phone. TRUST IS NEEDED Every time I had an appointment with someone, I needed to trust them …

Getting Back On My Happiness Level

Wow, where did the time go? Can you believe it is already June??? Almost half a year has already passed and this month I felt a little bit stuck… Stuck in everything, university, work and my relationships. This month was a little bit weird but thankfully I had my short break in Verona and refueled my motivation and energy for the upcoming month: which is basically just studying for my exams. Honestly, I can’t wait for it to be over, even just thinking about my exams makes me cringe. YES, I read self-help books. And I love it. I read a very interesting self-help book, I know it always sounds so desperate when you say you read those kind of things, but I swear on my favorite dish of my mom, these books DO help you! They motivate you and even open your eyes, there are so many basic things in life we don’t appreciate or just don’t see, but we should appreciate them and thank them every single day. Which book are you talking …

Fighting the thoughts

This month was full of ups and downs, events, changes and extreme mood swings – just like the April weather: The highlight of this month I finally realized my dream and launched LUNAMIÈRE, a fashion jewelry online shop! I would have never expect to receive so much support when I announced it, it was totally overwhelming and I am so grateful for everyone who helped me to build this shop, sent me their congratulations and everyone who bought something. Your support and your kind words motivate me to bring my shop to the next level! Even though this was the biggest highlight in April, I still had to struggle a lot, especially with myself. I fell back into my old habit a few times and it dragged me down and made feel really really bad. But I’ve learned and am still learning a lot about myself, especially about my way of thinking. I have to fight a lot against my negative thoughts on many things in my life. It is still a hard fight but after every …